The Adult Playground

1 year ago, somewhere in the 5th floor of Petrosains...

A man in red jacket, indicating he is someone important in the small training room, with in front of him 44 ++ young men and women sitting and listening to him as he gave them a briefing. Then, he came out with a simple question, which more or less like this: "Look around this room, the interior, the surrounding..everything. Tell me the first thing to come into your mind"As he laid his eyes on the young group of men and women, expecting one or two of them to answer him.

A young woman,clad in tudung raise her hand and answer "A discovery centre?" to which the man in red jacket nod indifferently. Second later the room was filled with voices,each and everyone is trying to give their input.

A man, in dark blue jacket, bearded and with wild looks, sat at among the last rows, fixing his eyes on the crowd. He kept his thoughts running in his mind, waiting the right time to share his mind. The bearded guy raised his hand. There was an aura that could turn everyone heads into looking at him when he raised his hand. It was an aura that suggest malignancy, rather than charisma. And he said" You wanna know what I think? I tell you what I think!" he paused for a moment, very brief but everyone felt as if the time stood still. "Well, I think..." he raised his head and gave the man in red jacket a cold, mean stare that could turned his knees to tofu, "I think of an adult playground". He gave a satisfied look when he finished his sentence, to which everybody stared him back in peculiar reaction. Some even can't helped chuckling among themselves, as quiet as possible to not offend the bearded guy.

But he did not give a heed as he was smiling to himself. He knew it was stupid, but what more important to him to turned the situation where everybody was serious to awkward.

"Adult playground? That sounds so wrong" the guy in red jacket replied, shot bearded dude with a weird expression. Heh.

That was 1 year ago. I miss my Petrosains buddies.

Nightsky

Gua rasa agak down all of sudden. Kejap lagi gua nak jalan sorang-sorang dan berfikir, the usual thing I always do. Gua dapat ketenangan tiap kali berjalan dalam gelap sambil tengok bangunan KL bercahaya di waktu malam.Entah kenapa lepas tu macam lega. Living a mediocre life, di mana orang sekeliling tak berapa pedulikan gua, kadang-kadang buat gua rasa beri kekuatan gua untuk jadi diri sendiri. Bebas dari prejudis orang lain, bebas dari pandangan skeptikal orang lain. Barangkali ini ke freedom yang gua selalu nak?Ah gua nak keluar ah.

Kenapa bilik ni rasa berpusing?

Pernah sekali dua tak jadi lu terbaring dalam bilik, perhati siling lepas tu tak buat apa-apa? Dalam kepala terlalu banyak benda bermain-main sampai tak sedar lu dah tenung siling dekat sejam? 

TURNING POINT. Berapa ramai dari kita dah mencapai turning point dah merubah hidup? Gua? Tak pasti dah sampai ke belum tapi ini mungkin dah mencapai ke perhetian yang entah ke berapa atau pun...barely start pun. TURNING POINT. Gua ingatkan diri sendiri, jangan cepat puas hati, jangan cepat patah hati.

Dulu cikgu tanya apa impian saya..

Sekarang saya dah boleh jawab dah. Cikgu, saya nak wujudkan sebuah band Doom Metal yang berkiblatkan Peaceville Three iaitu My Dying Bride, Anathema dan Paradise Lost!

Apa cita-cita awak pulak? Alamak, nak kawin terus lepas habis sekolah? Ughh banyak baca novel cinta ni!Pentewas!

2.0

Probably what I need in the end is, 'you' version 2.0. That's right. Therefore, until I found the 2.0 'you', all searching effort will be halted. And I need to distance myself from everybody. Or else I'll be losing my sanity. Fuck you if you don't understand this.

Dugaan banyak, kesabaran nipis

Been a very stressful week.

Something came up at workplace. Turned out one of the ad keluar kat newspaper screwed up and jadi buruk. Full page jadi buruk. Berwarna pulak tu.So the client wasn't amused with what happened and refused to pay for the ads. The cost? RM 35k. Holy mother of shit. Upon inspection on the FA (final artwork) they found my signature. Meaning it was me who approved it to appear on the next's day newspaper (along with the signature of designer and exec designer). And I overlooked it. Fuck, why did I signed it at the first place? Now I know my signature worth RM35k! Agak-agak lu punya signature yang hodoh tu berapa harga? Long story short, the client retracted their threat and paid the ad fee. Case closed. Okay it was a scary experience, and  nearly tarnished my reputation. Sikit lagi, nasib baik. Next time I'll be a jerk and jadi tegas by not simply let any fucked up ads to go into production.

In another unrelated case but still regarding at the workplace, gua dipaksa mengaku iklan birthday Sultan yang screwed up as my fault. Okay now I feel like working with gangsters. Shit, malas la nak ingat balik tapi betul ah bikin gua sikit upset. Bayang ah menda lu tak buat, dan takde bukti pun lu buat, tapi lu kena paksa mengaku yang tu hasil kerja lu dan salah lu. Nak? Sapa nak?Again, case closed. Misunderstanding. But still, berbekas jugak dalam hati. Kalau dah kena sekali, boleh jadi next time kena lagi. Fuck.

Recording lagu Raptor kedua baru selesai tadi.Didn't go well. Drum part sampai 3 take. The whole band tengah tertekan sebenarnya. Udin kurang sihat, baru jumpa doc semalam dan beratus jugak melayang bayar ubat. Jeremy tak dapat hadir recording, dan Anas takde gitar dan efek nak dipakai untuk recording. Keadaan agak fucked up la sebenarnya. hasil kurang memuaskan. Minggu ni agak jahanam haishh.

Pasal duit takyah cakap la, memang setiap masa bermasalah. Skang gua macam tak terurus sangat duit. Orang pinjam duit gua pun tak bayar lagi. Kadang-kadang sampai gua pulak yang kena mintak. Gila sampai camtu! Yang hutang gua cepat-cepat ye bayar balik. Gua pun hidup ada takde je duit ni. Baru awal bulan!

Tapi keadaan takde la se-grim mana pun this week. At least gua get to speak with that particular person setelah 2 years of silence. Gua perasan, dengan orang lain gua takleh jadi diri sendiri bila bercakap tapi dengan that person, it's like almost talking to someone who resemble myself. Too bad we can't be together again, too bad. Well, at least gua masih hidup kan?

Well what do you know about loyalty?!

You could learn a thing or two from this movie. Seriously. And IF you cry after you watch the movie ends, it's okay. The best, most emotional movie I've watched so far.

Hachi's loyalty is unmatched. Can you?