Dugaan banyak, kesabaran nipis

Been a very stressful week.

Something came up at workplace. Turned out one of the ad keluar kat newspaper screwed up and jadi buruk. Full page jadi buruk. Berwarna pulak tu.So the client wasn't amused with what happened and refused to pay for the ads. The cost? RM 35k. Holy mother of shit. Upon inspection on the FA (final artwork) they found my signature. Meaning it was me who approved it to appear on the next's day newspaper (along with the signature of designer and exec designer). And I overlooked it. Fuck, why did I signed it at the first place? Now I know my signature worth RM35k! Agak-agak lu punya signature yang hodoh tu berapa harga? Long story short, the client retracted their threat and paid the ad fee. Case closed. Okay it was a scary experience, and  nearly tarnished my reputation. Sikit lagi, nasib baik. Next time I'll be a jerk and jadi tegas by not simply let any fucked up ads to go into production.

In another unrelated case but still regarding at the workplace, gua dipaksa mengaku iklan birthday Sultan yang screwed up as my fault. Okay now I feel like working with gangsters. Shit, malas la nak ingat balik tapi betul ah bikin gua sikit upset. Bayang ah menda lu tak buat, dan takde bukti pun lu buat, tapi lu kena paksa mengaku yang tu hasil kerja lu dan salah lu. Nak? Sapa nak?Again, case closed. Misunderstanding. But still, berbekas jugak dalam hati. Kalau dah kena sekali, boleh jadi next time kena lagi. Fuck.

Recording lagu Raptor kedua baru selesai tadi.Didn't go well. Drum part sampai 3 take. The whole band tengah tertekan sebenarnya. Udin kurang sihat, baru jumpa doc semalam dan beratus jugak melayang bayar ubat. Jeremy tak dapat hadir recording, dan Anas takde gitar dan efek nak dipakai untuk recording. Keadaan agak fucked up la sebenarnya. hasil kurang memuaskan. Minggu ni agak jahanam haishh.

Pasal duit takyah cakap la, memang setiap masa bermasalah. Skang gua macam tak terurus sangat duit. Orang pinjam duit gua pun tak bayar lagi. Kadang-kadang sampai gua pulak yang kena mintak. Gila sampai camtu! Yang hutang gua cepat-cepat ye bayar balik. Gua pun hidup ada takde je duit ni. Baru awal bulan!

Tapi keadaan takde la se-grim mana pun this week. At least gua get to speak with that particular person setelah 2 years of silence. Gua perasan, dengan orang lain gua takleh jadi diri sendiri bila bercakap tapi dengan that person, it's like almost talking to someone who resemble myself. Too bad we can't be together again, too bad. Well, at least gua masih hidup kan?