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Reasons why I left:

- My depression is getting severe. I need a place where I can be alone (and commit suicide...okay I made that up)
-I want a privacy. The last thing I want to hear is someone screaming at me and telling me what to do. For fuck's sake, I'm in my mid 20's, gimme some space!
-I want to taste the freedom of being myself.
-I feel I'm being treated unfairly. No more oh you can't do that, you can't to this. No more. Fuck it.
-I'm tired of being compared with other people. Why I can't just be myself? I don't care if Mak Cik Bibah's eldest son is an engineer and make RM5k a month, or Puan Jijah's second daughter is pursuing Master's degree. If they are so cool, go adopt them as your kid! Look, if I like wearing black shirts and spend my money on CDs and shits, what's the problem? Why must I fit in your point of view? Why must I be like others? Have you never heard 'individuality' before? Now don't claim you are being an open minded mom, the truth is, you are not.
-I'm losing my patient of your ramblings. Why everything I did seems to be wrong to you? I know when I said I'm moving out you were shocked, but I guess that's the price you have to pay when you make me feel alienated in the house. I tried to mend things but it didn't work. Ingat petang tadi masa kenduri? You told me to keep an eye on your bag to which I did but then  you told me to get some old newspaper to cover the lauk kenduri in car. Yes I went to get the newspaper, and I left the bag which you were standing nearby. When I came back you were nowhere in sight and then out of nowhere you screamed at me IN FRONT OF PEOPLE telling me I left your bag unattended (get the idea? Yea I'm accused of being careless!). I was really upset the way you treat me. So I assume you really wanted me to leave. Fine.

I don't know whether God really exists. But if God is listening to me right now, please help me. Light up my path.