A: An Autopsy

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Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Adman by day, music writer by night. Closet metalhead on weekends. You may find me weird, but that's just probably you.

I quit smoking and proud of it

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Gua promise ni CD last gua beli tahun ni!

L-R: Burzum - Burzum/Aske Digipak (Misanthropy Recs), Burzum - Belus Digipak(Byelobog Prod), Borknagar - Universal Jewelcase (Indie Recs)





You smell that? It smells gooooooooooooood!

Akhirnya sampai jugak!Okay dah boleh sangat berhenti membeli merchandise/CD buat masa ni. Gua umumkan aktiviti membeli belah ditangguhkan sehingga keadaan kembali tenang! Terima kasih kepada Oscar Nordbø!
 

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Gua cuti,pehal lu orang kerja hahahaah!

We're almost at the end of September. How time flies fast. Beginning next week I'll be on leave as it's my turn to take a Raya break. Yea I know, lambat siyal gua nak cuti. Who cares. I did my job now it's my turn to kick back and relax. Fuck yeah, cuti at the end of the month. Sweet.

  • I'm moving out from Mom's house and moving in to an apartment somewhere in Ampang. It's about time pun, to be totally independent. I'm not getting any younger pun :p Probably will move in at the end of Sept or early October. Finally I can get my own freedom. Fuck yeah.

  • 3 months until my contract with NSTP expires. Wonder what's the future holds for me. Whatever the outcome might be, I hope 2011 will be another great year for me. Please gaji kasi naik baik punya! I think I have to hold back my plan of owning a car, because of the pindah rumah thingy. No matter, car can wait. Car is not an asset by the way. Anyhow, I'm in a process of updating my portfolio. I gather all my published works (including the recent one the raya road safety campaign). Not that much, but I value them very much as they are important for my repo and street cred <-----------ayat bajet gangstuh hahah!

  • Oscar, my Norwegian friend aka my former boss is currently on trip to his home land, Norway. So I asked him a favor to get some of Norwegian band CDs. Well he did. As what he told thru Facebook, he got me Burzum's Belus (2010) digipak and Aske (1993) EP and Borknagar's Universal (2010). Ahaha can't wait for Oscar to fly back here! But that left me with one question in my head. Have I spent too much on music? Macam..tiap-tiap bulan kot gua beli merchandise music. Tak baju, CD. This need to stop. I can't keep buying stuff every month. This is madness. It's like I myself have turned a shopaholic. Well, kinda. This could be my last puchase for the year. Well I hope so.
So uhh tomorrow is NSTP's Raya Open House. Free foooooooooooooooooooooooooooood fuck yeah!I better get some sleep.

Monday, September 20, 2010

Changes for a better ending.




Soon, everything will change. I don't expect much except for a better life. May this small sacrifice will reward me for something bigger.


Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Fuck No


Tahun lepas punya gambar. Skang badan gua dah bertambah berkali-kali ganda besar. Not good.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Respect my privacy

Jangan nak sibuk nak tentukan siapa gua nak kawan, siapa gua nak bergaul, apa gua nak buat. It's none of your fucking business. Respect my life. You have no business poking around with my life. Respect my privacy. Kalau gua tak nak beritau, pehal nak paksa? Kesabaran gua dah menipis. Gua anytime boleh tengking lu dan biar satu neighbourhood dengar. Jangan nak paksa.

It's a zone,called comfort zone

Kita patut tahu bila masa untuk bergerak keluar dari zon selesa. Tak kira la kerja ke, status hidup ke apa ke. Peka dengan keadaan. Lihat keadaan poket. Lihat reaksi orang. Tak kira ah. Janji peka. Kalau rasa gaji tu dah rasa tak cukup dan keperluan hidup makin mendesak lu keluar duit lebih, itu maknanya kena keluar dari zon selesa. Kalau dah rasa tiba-tiba status golongan mewah lu tu dah macam drop sikit (dah tak boleh minum machiato kat The Apartment KLCC setiap bulan, sebagai contoh), itu maknanya kena keluar dari zon selesa. Dah kalau tiba-tiba mak lu duk bagi hint macam nak suruh lu keluar duk sendiri, itu maknanya kena keluar dari zon selesa.Kadang-kadang jadi manja sangat pun tak boleh. Malu ah dengan diri sendiri, unless lu memang muka tembok (Bunkface?). Bersusah sikit bukan bererti jadi bahalol (sebab setengah orang cakap jangan jadi bodoh la, buat apa nak hidup susah, baik hidup senang!), pada gua ia mengajar kita hargai purpose hidup kita. Dan sebagai sorang yang sentiasa dipandang loser dan kurang berjaya sejak kecil, gua mesti ah kena berusaha keras supaya dapat menjamin hidup gua yang serba pathetic ni. Gua tak peduli pun apa expectation orang. On the side note, gua adalah anak sulung, yang mana selalu orang cakap mereka ni anak experimentation oleh ibu bapa untuk membesarkan anak. Jadi kalau anak sulung tu didikannya salah atau kurang cermat, the following children akan dididik dengan sempurna..lebih sempurna dari yang sulung. Gua? Entah ah gua tak peduli pun kalau gua ni anak experimentation yang berjaya ke tak. Tapi melihatkan sering dibandingkan dengan anak yang lain, gua kadang-kadang terfikir jugak menda ni betul kot agaknya. Bila gua dilabel mengikut perangai abah (yang gua extremely benci bila dilabel camtu), gua jadi upset. Gua bukan abah, gua darah daging dia, itu betul, tapi gua adalah individu yang berbeza, bukan carbon copy abah atau abah versi 2.0. Tapi mak lain kot dia fikir. FUCK THAT, tapi gua tetap sayang abah walaupun gua sebenarnya banyak kali kecewa dengan dia, dan jugak mak (terutamanya 2 tahun kebelakangan ni). Barangkali gua kena remind diorang, gua ada vision sendiri dan gua tak suka mengikut saja. Gua tak suka kena banding dengan orang lain, sebab pada gua buat apa nak letak level kita sama dengan orang lain? Menjadi berbeza bukan bermaksud gua gila atau bahalol. Anak mak dan abah ni, enggan tunduk kepada norma-norma biasa. Anak mak dan abah ni, tak suka berkongsi cerita, tak macam anak mak dan abah yang lain. Anak mak dan abah ni perahsia, tak macam anak mak dan abah yang lain. Tapi tak bererti dia tak reti jaga diri, tak tahu limitation. Dah boleh sangat berhenti nak treat macam budak tak cukup akal. Jadi tak payah terkejut kalau anak sulung yang perahsia dan tak suka bercerita ni all of sudden menentang dan mula speaks his mind, sebab dia dah take control hidup dia. Jadi dah sampai masa you both sit back and chill the fuck out. Jangan pulak satu hari nanti dia decided to never come back and stop addressing you both mak and abah and instead refer to your first name saja. Biar gua keluar dari zon selesa, biar gua carve my own path. Dosa pahala, gua tanggung. Amal dan doa, itu antara gua dengan tuhan. You don't have to yell at my face , telling it over and over again,24/7. It really hurts. Fucking hurts. I love my mak and abah. Time to get out from the comfort zone. NOW.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Tak harap pun. Tak hairan pun.

I was expecting Raya to fall on Thursday (9/9), but I was wrong. Raya will be on Friday. You know what  that means? I have to go to work esok. Fucking hell, why why why! I already imagining myself having a good time on Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday but whyyyyyyyyyyyyy! Bangsar I fucking hate to see you tomorrow,man! Honestly gua tak excited pun nak raya. Not even an inch. Pada gua raya, puasa semua ni dah takde kegembiraan macam dulu. Ye salah satunya sebab Vestibular Neuronitis gua masih ada lagi. Sialan punya penyakit, tak reti nak berambus ke? Badan memanjang tak sihat, apa sialnya semua ni?


Monday, September 6, 2010

Raya bukan sekadar berbaju Melayu dan makan rendang, iya?

Raya dah dekat sangat dah ni, tinggal berapa hari je puasa akan tamat pastu raya. Ye raya. Gua tak rasa excited pun. It's either gua tak excited sebab gua dah meningkat tua ataupun gua memang tak nampak keistimewaan Ramadhan dan Aidilfitri tu sendiri. Ah malas gua nak fikir. Peduli apa. Janji gua hidup dan terus berjuang untuk hidup. Ewah. Anyway, dah namanya dah dekat nak raya mesti ah secara tipikalnya rakyat Malaysia (yang sentiasa ghairah dalam apa jua hal termasuk mengkafirkan orang) akan swarm shopping complexes bila dah masuk minggu ke 2 puasa. Gua konon nak shopping raya ah. Tapi haram nak beli baju melayu ke apa ke. Lu tau amenda gua beli?

Battlelore - Evernight (digipak limited edition)



Theatre of Tragedy - Storm
Wahkahkah! Mana nak beli baju Melayu, instead gua beli CD fuck yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Selamat Hari Raya! Btw hari ni first campaign road safety hasil tulisan gua keluar kat paper sampai seminggu pas raya. Ahh sukanya!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Current Obsession

KAISA JOUHKI (BATTLELORE) IS THE PRETTIEST ELF, EVER.PERIOD!


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