Namárië, dinda

I feel crushed very bad. You know when you try really hard to hide a wound, it will eventually fester and leave you in misery? Yes. Here is something I should have done long time ago. But I chose not to. Whether I was too scared or waited for the right time, it doesn't matter now, for I think all is lost. For whatever strength is left, here it is. 

I blame nobody but myself. Perhaps I was too late. Or perhaps I fell for the wrong person.

Dear 'Susan Glenn',

I learnt it the hard way. Here, I leave you in peace. Thanks for all the time you willing to hear me and spend. I am eternally grateful. Sure I'm left crushed pretty bad, but I will stand up again, all on my own. I'm not going to say I will always love you, because over the time, feelings will change. Sorry for all the trouble caused.

Namárië, dinda.

A.

Unbidden shadows of you formed yesterday

I ran away to a room here on the bay

Interrupted life again, another new beginning

Where the silence echoes

You're no longer with me

Here and now

I feel that I'm embracing freedom

Even though I may be alone

But that's okay

Through the darkness 

I would walk in the streets

Confessions never seemed

To provide me with a release

Held me down and tried to cure me

Tried to give me reason

But nothing could seperate

This burdened mind from me

Here and now

I feel that I'm embracing freedom

Even though I may be alone, but that's okay

Looking out to a different sky will disengage me

Absence is never the answer, I know

But it serves as my shade

I do not seek and not intend to find

A calmer ocean or a sun that'll never rise

My world will never change

And time will bring you to my thoughts

I'll move on and forget you all over again

Moving on, I can forgive you all over again

Here and now

I feel that I'm embracing freedom

Even though I may be alone, but that's okay

And looking out onto a different sky

It seems so easy

Absence is never the answer, I know

But it serves as my shade